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Reler as coisas que escrevo me fazem perceber o quanto consigo controlar coisas até certo ponto em que elas simplesmente explodem e eu perco o controle totalmente. Acontece em diversos setores da minha vida. São sentimentos, compulsões e atitudes em geral.
Toda meta é parcialmente cumprida. Nos 2 primeiros meses. E depois começo a voltar a ser quem sou. Escrever entre outras coisas me fazem bem. Consigo me acalmar pondo tudo em linhas meio nonsense. Às vezes serve como o confidente que não está presente.
Não quero que ninguém leia isso. Realmente não. O espaço só me serve de terapia enquanto não chego no equilíbrio que quero chegar.
Ando mais sensata e tentando ver o lado que acredito que seja real de toda essa história. Posso estar certa ou errada, mas estou partindo da premissa que temos que pensar positivamente e não viver na angústia e agonia das inseguranças.
Take a deep breath, life is supposed to be a fun journey.

Nothing lasts forever

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
I just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
But misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
Never let it fall apart
Strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Though we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling, oh
I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Nunca escrevo letras de música. Essa me parece bastante boa.
Coisas eu deveria ter coragem de dizer.